And with that, I’ve completed the painstaking process of manually recovering my old LiveJournal posts.
All total, I think I restored about 90 posts.
A lot of them are lightweight: I’d forgotten how much I was playing with quizzes and self-tests.
But there is some real stuff in there too, stuff that I had forgotten about, mainly around how unhappy I was back then.
Combine that with the quizzes, and how I now know that much of what I thought I knew about me then was flat-out wrong, and you get a very interesting picture.
You get a picture that is very different from the me of today.
And that perhaps is the real reason why I needed to go and recover these. So that I can combine the awareness of what I was then with my working through things the past year to understand who I really am, and what I really want.
February 8, 2010 is an important date for me: it’s when the changes all started finally happening.
I suspect that this year I will be using the anniversary of that as an opportunity to draw a line and declare parts of my past fully and officially closed.
Having some record of what I once was on this blog is actually an important part of that. It’s a chance for people to see what was, so they can better appreciate what is.
At the least, that’s what it all means to me.
